Clean My Heart
l Title: Clean My Heart
Intro This ain’t for a show. This ain’t for applause. This is blood on the vinyl. Yahuah, I’m coming home.
Hook Yahuah, clean my heart I did so much right, but my heart got hard I gave all I had, still I missed the mark You gave me breath when I fell apart
Yahuah, clean my hands I tried to love, but I moved like a damaged man I don’t want fear making love’s commands Bring me back to who I am
Post-Hook Bring me back, bring me back To the boy who believed in love like that Bring me back, bring me back Before the pain put knives in my back
Bring me back, bring me back To the breath You gave before I cracked Yahuah, clean my heart I did so much right, but my heart got hard
Verse 1 I saw love at the table, mom and dad still standing Seventh grade roots, that’s the first understanding One man, one woman, one house, one flame Then the world got cold and I forgot my name
I got hurt, so I guarded the door Kept a little distance so I wouldn’t bleed more Called it wisdom, but it smelled like fear Had a woman love me and I wasn’t all here
Not because I wanted somebody else I was trying not to die from the war in myself Old ghosts in the room, old wounds in the walls I heard Your voice, but I still didn’t fall
Then I saw her hurt from the things I allowed And the whole fake armor came crashing down It wasn’t guilt, it was truth in my chest Like, “This ain’t me, I was made for the blessed”
Pre-Hook I don’t want a side door I don’t want a cold heart I don’t want to call pain wisdom When it’s tearing love apart
I don’t want a hard face I don’t want a proud scar I don’t want to lose the holy Trying not to feel the dark
Hook Yahuah, clean my heart I did so much right, but my heart got hard I gave all I had, still I missed the mark You gave me breath when I fell apart
Yahuah, clean my hands I tried to love, but I moved like a damaged man I don’t want fear making love’s commands Bring me back to who I am
Verse 2 I stayed when it hurt, I bled when I stayed I laughed through the grief cause I didn’t know the way I was naked at the door with my armor on the floor Like, “I finally got here, but she don’t see me no more”
And maybe that’s justice, maybe that’s fire Maybe You burn what was mixed with desire Maybe You let all the false things depart So a man can return with a clean broken heart
I violated space that was meant to be sacred Let pain touch the altar, now I gotta face it Not here to excuse it, not here to run I’m here in the dust like, “Father, I’m Your son”
I did so much right, but the root still twisted Gave everybody access that should’ve been distant Loved without gates, called it being kind But holy things break in unclean hands over time
So teach me the gate, but don’t make me stone Teach me the throne, but don’t leave me alone Teach me to judge without hate in my breath Teach me to love without choosing my death
Pre-Hook I don’t want a side door I don’t want a cold heart I don’t want to call pain wisdom When it’s tearing love apart
I don’t want a hard face I don’t want a proud scar I don’t want to lose the holy Trying not to feel the dark
Hook Yahuah, clean my heart I did so much right, but my heart got hard I gave all I had, still I missed the mark You gave me breath when I fell apart
Yahuah, clean my hands I tried to love, but I moved like a damaged man I don’t want fear making love’s commands Bring me back to who I am
Bridge Same man at the church Same man at the house Same man in the work Same man when I’m down
No mask for the world No show for the crowd Just truth in my lungs When Your name comes out
Yahuah, I repent Not to drown in shame But to come back clean And remember my name
I don’t want survival If it costs me my soul I don’t want control I want to be made whole
Final Hook Yahuah, clean my heart I did so much right, but my heart got hard I gave all I had, still I missed the mark You gave me breath when I fell apart
Yahuah, clean my hands I tried to love, but I moved like a damaged man I don’t want fear making love’s commands Bring me back to who I am
Outro Bring me back, bring me back To the breath before the break Bring me back, bring me back To the love before the pain
Bring me back, bring me back To the house, to the flame Yahuah, clean my heart Let me never be the same